I think I've finally understood why I've been drawn away to DA. I think it's because for the past few years (when I was in-active or like never updating) I've been going through stressful changes, like high school for instance, had an art block, and tried making some real life friends. Before I used DA to meet new people, whom I've grown to love, and truely care for. And I feel bad, since it seems like I went off the face of the Earth and never said a good-bye, or left some kinda note.

Well, lately I've just grown to really HATE my high school. I mean, if I could I would drop out. I really DON'T want to go back. But one of the reasons for the hatred toward my highschool is that most of the friends I've made in real life, have just been treating me like shit, and it makes me re-evaluate things. And I've come to realize, I'm alone here. Sure, I have a ton of friends and people I've come to know and love. The ones I seem to be losing were my close, best friends. I mean I dunno. I've given them chances, been kind to them, always been there for them, and I get nothing in return. Seems like no love, or respect for anything.

And well, as far as losing my best friends, I seem to be losing touch with my other friends. Ones I used to call best and just regular friends. I think I'm becoming anti-social, and I've just become weak and worn down. And it's hard to put up with stuff after awhile. D:>

And well, since real life has failed me, or I've failed it, I've decided to come back. And hopefully I can actually try to keep up. But now, I think I realized the true purpose of why I even came on here.

But this is really, just a note to everyone. I'm sorry for leaving without notice. And breaking promises. I hope maybe I can be forgiven? I just seem lost, and I remember some of the nicest, generous, loving people- friends are on here. I'm truely sorry for leaving you all.

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BUT. In other news, our computer got a virus, so I basically lost all my files and everything. So no art programs. :[ (Back to MS paint I guess. Even though I never posted any of my art that I used other programs to make.) Oh and no flash. :<

Please bare with me on a few things. I'll try updating as much as humanly possible. I still have an art block mind you!